Thursday, June 25, 2015

chelsea skies.

People think having fears is normal. The judgement comes when you tell them what is it that you fear in particular; cotton buds, roaches, heights, monsters in your closet? Anything is possible. Fear is fear, and how you value them in your life will determine how you'll rule your state of mind.

Aside from the FOMOs (fear of missing out) caused by this one bipolar hell of a city, I have been having fears about losing myself, or even losing the drive that gets me out of bed every single day. Life is not as tough when you're well equipped with food and entertainment. Leisure is on every corner, books are affordable. But too much of it and you'll find yourself living in a blur.

When I used to live in Chelsea, one of the things I'd like to do was to lie down on one of the rock benches at Chelsea Piers, and look up into the big open skies. As cliché as it might get, this simple act of being outside, I find it somehow to be therapeutic, but at the same time, it gets lonely.

It rained pretty hard afterwards.

Wednesday, March 25, 2015


Going back to the life of a fine arts student caused me to neglect a lot of things. In a way, it is very unprofessional to do so, but things have to be prioritized. I tend to forget that a day isn't made out of a hundred hours. I apologize for the inconvenience to those people who got affected by this (models, agents, co-workers, etc.) I am positive that things are going to be done when I figure out how to work everything out simultaneously --even if they're months late.

Aside from that, le muse Patricia is currently visiting NYC for the week. As usual, hanging out with her always consisted of lots of food, laughters, and pictures. Although only for today I've been using my polaroid for a change. We both know that we needed something less serious and heavy. Plus, it's her spring break after all.

Namas too tay.

This set of pictures are also available at

Friday, December 12, 2014

cirebon city.

I did a spontaneous cultural getaway to the city of Cirebon, three hours away by train from the capital. A childhood friend of mine offered to take me around because the town that's famous for its batik production turns out to be his hometown. So away we went for three days, squeezing a week's worth of knowledge and culture into that limited timeframe.

Therefore, special thanks to Tomy Agusta and family for being such a great host.

Other than that, the only new thing about my life would be the money-burning obsession towards polaroid. The raw quality of a scanned polaroid gave me a room to breathe from the long and painful process of editing my other pictures. Currently crossing my fingers about it, though.

Blogger's kind of annoying these days due to the inaccurate colors it gave to some of the pictures I've uploaded bellow. But I guess it's fine for now.

Aside from all of the work and mingling, I had two weeks left before flying off to the concrete winter of NYC. Excited? Yeap. Gonna be able to see a lot of my good friends, both humans and artworks. Although I might've not be able to do a lot of fashion photography due to the workload I'll get as a third year student. Maybe that's why the world is giving me a lot of new opportunities in photography these days.

I can only hope that juggling everything this time will be easier with the clarity that I've gained during the past six months of being home.

Peace and wanderlust!

Wednesday, October 29, 2014


Have you ever mindlessly doodled on a tissue while you were on the phone, or fiddled with a rubber band when someone was scolding you? Well, today I found myself grabbing my camera in the midst of piling a mountain high of doubts.

Doubts about the future, about time management, about confidence, about freedom.

And I thought about since when is photography about how much equipments I have to use --which stresses me out quite a bit when it comes to planning. There's something about my way of working that changed, and it gave me an impression of being corrupted. Like an error file on your desktop.

I wonder if I'll be more relaxed about all of this when I'm back in NYC, as a Fine Arts student that focuses only on making beautiful things.

Friday, October 10, 2014

tenth of october.

I've decided to make my website public since about two weeks ago, therefore this blog would still be running as more of a personal platform. Honestly I'm still a bit annoyed about not being able to share all of my pictures both from work and daily life in one place anymore. It's not that I can't, but I'm still trying to figure out how to manage two sites at the same time. I mean, hell, I didn't even update this blog that often.

But yes, figuring things out is not the same as cooking a cup noodle. Instant gratification is the last thing I wanted to practice right now.

Aside from tech dev and work, I've also started a short project with a mystery model. She's fifteen years old, and despite her young age, she's been babysitting my nephew from time to time.

I also just got back from China and committed a crime by buying a fake pair of canvas shoes --only because they're navy blue plus it's China, what can you expect? They're not the ones in the photograph, though. I bought this orange pair for a good price on ZALORA.

OH and I styled! Man, it's been awhile since I did that. Remember Ray from the previous post? He introduced me to Bowo, a photographer and adorer of all things Japanese. We ended up collaborating at my house the week after we got to know each other;

You can check his works here and follow his instagram @prabowbow.

Yes, ok, that's all for the greeting post this month.
With that, I wish you all a fucking one hell of a great weekend!


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Photosynthesizing around the world.